sickness

every day i wonder if you think of me
it is easy to pretend that you dont love me anymore
and i know that you tried to push me away
but anything in this world can take me away from you, not even you
i know how much you want to hurt me

every minute i wonder if you are happy
only you are in my mind
why are you so mean with me?
when i only want you to be happy
i know that i dont deserve your love
'cause im a siner

i feel alone
theres no one for me, not even you
my only partner is this knife
this knife in my hand
this is my way out of here

God why dont u love me?